Unforgettable

A lingering thought in my mind that was to be erased but could never be gone.
I still wonder to myself. How could you be so mean?
I trusted you. I helped you. I let you in. But I guess, I was a fool for believing our friendship was real.

Do you know how deep that "stab" was? Did you know I was ready to forgive and forget? Did you know that despite that betrayal, i was willing to start afresh?

I bet you refused to believe because through your eyes, I am merely a selfish, manipulative, horrible person. My thoughts are a mess. Be nice to people and get treated like this. What in the world is wrong? And so, you went on denying and thrusted that stab wound deeper in and just left it there. That knife was taken out myself but every wound leaves a scar. I begin to doubt everything and paranoia sets in. Was it just you or everyone too?


Now, it's just at a standstill. A stalemate in a chess game you initiated that I never wanted.

I've been told to ignore and forget. However, this must NEVER be forgotten. It is a valuable lesson and reminder to always keep my guard up. It will always linger in a corner of my mind and be there to tell me of just how ruthless people can be.

You seem to be a lost case. You refuse to open your eyes and see. But when I think of everyone else, my heart is put to ease. It was only you. Then I remember my other friends who have been true and honest with me. Who are always there when I need them. Whom I will never hurt and hope in turn won't hurt me. Who I can trust and know that they can trust me.

I hope all of you know that I truly appreciate our friendship and pray it will last :)