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Let's just talk all through the night, there's no need to rush :]



This is much sweeter =]

Lazyness + Boredom

I've become a very lazy person nowadays. I used to jump to my work the moment i receive it and spend hours and days perfecting it. Also, when i knew i had to study something, I would constantly remind myself that i needed to wrap my head around it so i would be an expert at that topic.
But now... I'm so different. Its probably a good thing. At least i'm having more fun now.
In fact, i don't even feel like doing anything and yet i feel like I'm wasting my time.

Take this for example, I'm wasting my time writing this blog entry when i can just be studying for my trials which is in exactly one week.
Or i could be doing something productive like practising the piano or cleaning my room
Or giving the dogs a bath (which they will need soon) I could even be learning how to roller skate as those poor little skates are just sitting there in the closet waiting to be used but never getting a chance because i am too darn lazy to learn how to use them.

I needa do something with myself. haiz...  I mean the "most important" thing is to study. yea yea.. I get it. and then, there's health. which means working out/exercising. but we shouldn't overdo that or else we could also harm ourselves.
and then what? huh?  NOTHING. what am I doing???

yes. I play the piano and at a grade which many never expect me to reach because of how crappy a player i am. But, so what?  go down the street and ask anyone, "do you play an instrument?"  I bet 78% will say they play the piano. and 47% will say they're good at it.
ok then fine, I've thought about taking up guitar. but then again, too lazy and also guitar strings hurt your fingers. still, same thing with the piano. ALMOST everyone plays the guitar, well besides people like me.
Ok, let's push aside musical instruments. er... sports. well, sports are totally fun especially football :D   but, things like these need people. A big group people playing sports is fun not just one or two sad people tossing/kicking/rolling/hitting/smacking the ball at each other. and of course, sports can be tiring and not many people can excel in it. As long as we know how to play, we stop there.
then, there's the artistic aspect. ART- not my strongest point. I have to say my mind can be a little wild with creativity sometimes (as most people are) but I'm not someone who can just sit there with a pen and paper and produce something artistically fantastic. In fact, in some ways, art absolutely baffles me. With all those different interpretations/impressions, its just so... subjective. Though, i must say certain art really gets to me but I haven't been able to put those in a category. its always random. just to clear the water, I DO NOT LIKE ANIME.. ok. I used to watch things like sailormoon and pokemon when i was young and then moved on to animax when i was 12 and got addicted for 3 months. But after that, I was like, "hey, i don't like anime". anyways, not that I hate it, i just don't like it. no hard feelings to anime lovers. I'll save my anime insults for next time.
ok then, art. For some, it is an outlet. Some, it is an excuse to show off. Some, it is hobby. Some, it is a ruse to cheat rich people's money. Some, it is a productive way of wasting your time (unlike me who's just typing this really long blog post).
oh, which brings me to one thing. PHOTOGRAPHY. I must say i have a strong interest in this (as I've noticed many do). It doesn't require me to draw anything. It doesn't require me to think a lot. Just hold the camera to your face and look through the lens. When you see someting worth capturing, you freeze it by snapping the picture. fairly simple.
I take a lot of pictures. some of myself(not a lot though, haha I'm no cam-whorer ;D) and most of random things. I don't like posting them up though, I just can't stand the thought of someone stealing my pictures and then using them for themselves (though i may be guilty of that sometimes).
ok, that was visual. now, what about language? poetry. no way.. haha.. I'd have to be very poetic and be able come up with rhymes and stuff which only works sometimes. its one of those things that need a lot of talent. what about writing? well, writing I enjoy actually. like this blog post. as you can see i have written lots and lots of words. haha. mostly just random things from my mind and nothing of great importance. I think of stories in my head. REALLY epic stories in my head in many many genres. You wouldn't believe what kinds of stories are found in that little storeroom of fantasy and imagination in my head. yea... anyway, writing short stories is just not my thing. if its short, i tend to make it real boring. so, writing long stories. that's also annoying because the moment i start to write or type something, the story flows and then the story rapidly develops in my head and i have no time to pen it down or type it out. It stays pending and then just disappears in a corner of my cranium. which is obviously frustrating.
ok, so what else is there? Baking/cooking?  that's not bad. I'm not toooo bad at it too. but its highly time consuming and i hate washing up after that. Just like gardening, I don't have a passion for it. Just don't find it all that interesting.
though, i do enjoy eating. (which i shouldn't do so much else i gain more fat xD)

right then, if after all this, you are still reading, I congratulate and salute you for joining me on this journey of boredom. fyi, this came out of sheer boredom and being very annoyed with my history textbook for being so thick. (btw, i can't remember what i read for history and i'm suprised i'm not freaking out yet. but i will soon =.=)
anyways, because i was bored, it has given me time to reflect on myself while typing out this random words that come out of my brain through my fingertips on the keyboard. I can barely remember what i just wrote a few seconds ago up there. but either way, the main thing is, what the hell am i doing??  I feel like I'm wasting so much time. or maybe time has just decided to speed up.

So, I'm guessing if you read this and still are, you're probably just as bored as me or feel like reading this just so you can laugh at my sadness. it's ok. if you were bored, i have given you something to do. If you read it just to see how miserable i am, well, i don't THINK i'm miserable but go ahead, LAUGH. at least it has provided some entertainment.  =D
well, it certainly has given me something to do. I just kept going, and I'm not really sure how to end this. It's just me rambling on and on and on.
so, if ya read this, feel free to say hi to me or comment or twit me or facebook me or text me or message me. :)
yes. I am very bored and too lazy to study.
oh, btw, did you know that dogs are the only animals that actually smile?  :D
hehee... random fact. and so true :]

Don't lose that Spark

Time...  an important factor in everything we do.
A little too early, and nothing will happen. A little too late, and that feeling is gone.

When there's that spark, you have start the fire. Once it is gone, you'll have a hard time igniting the fire which may not even last. Even maths can't calculate the right "timing". You have ta follow your heart. yea... I know this sounds cheesy but its true.

You should be able to tell what the right time is. You may know it though you think you don't. Your mind might not know what your heart knows. The heart may not always be right, but when it is, it is definitely the right choice at the right time.

I remember feeling unsure. There was a spark... We didn't even realise. We let time drag on, and eventually that spark just faded. I guess.. that's just too bad then.

So, we have learnt that, once you've felt that spark, light it.. at the right time.

Vietnam...

My birthday had passed and nothing much happened. Though, it was a very heartwarming birthday this year ^_^

Anyways, I went on a school camp to Vietnam which was SO much fun.
Wasn't a very campy camp but it was still awesome. We made it fun  ;D

At the end of camp, I managed to take some photos of people's eyes. and then I put it together into this

Eye see Eyes

Btw, This picture belongs to ME!!
:D 
and anyone who's eye is in it. ;]

Crushes~

Crushes are so annoying
It's so strange. It's like a sudden fascination and then it goes away. You don't really know why but... they just take over your mind.
The worst thing is, its so fickle. When you try to ignore, forget, or suppress one, another one comes. and then after a while, the old one comes back! and then more old ones keep coming!!  some long some short. SO ridiculous.
I find, the best thing to do is to just try to ignore it and wait for it to blow over. As much as I don't want to, I still want to. It's so confusing....

You Are The Only Exception =)

Paramore has gotten me pretty deep here...
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not to mention, this would be a dream come true  ^_^

Bermuda?

Did ya know that Bermudas and Shorts are 2 different things? Well, I certainly didn't. HAHAHAHA

Here's how the two look alike. SO, apparently Bermuda pants are suppose the be longer and shorts are well, short. hahah


BERMUDA

                            SHORTS 

Btw, pics are from Google images  ;D

and yet again...

Paul the Psychic Octopus...
how do you do it?
gosh....

FYI, Paul was right... AGAIN and SPain won 1-0 against Netherlands. I guess that marks the end of the FIFA 2010

Let's hope Paul stays safe and doesn't get eaten before FIFA 2014

WORLD CUP FINAL

Jeng jeng jeng!  *dramatic music plays*
yesh.     SPAIN vs. NETHERLANDS
who in the world would've have predicted that?? .....  well, i guess Paul did but humans didn't xD
annnnnnnyways, I know most think that Spain will win and yesh that is MOST likely since they were EURO champions. but still, i think I'll support NETHERLANDS. Weeeeeeee
The spanish are so fantastic though, it's almost scary but... Netherlands JUST MIGHT.

We can still hope to the very last minute... This time, Paul, you BETTER BE WRONG

The Octopus was Right :O

Paul the Psychic Octopus was hatched at the Sea Life Centre in Weymouth, Dorset in England. He currently resides in a tank in the Sea Life Oberhausen in Oberhausen, Germany. In the UEFA Euro 2008, Paul aka 'Das Krakenorakel' predicted 5 out of 6 matches right. His mistake was to predict Germany as a winner against Spain. In this World Cup 2010, he learned from his mistake and predicted Spain's victory over Germany. This caused an uproar and the germans were frustrated. True enough, he was right and the germans lost 1-0 to Spain in the World Cup semi-final. Thus, making his predictions a 100% in this World Cup.

Well then, THE OCTOPUS WAS RIGHT. People were a little skeptical to believe this thing with 8 legs is an oracle. but, he's been right so far...  But I think that the octopus might have been the partial cause of Germany's downfall. I'm sure the players were like "OMG.. we're gonna lose, Paul said so" so then they played with less semangat. Either that, or they were in awe of the Spanish team. Many times they just stood there watching the Spanish play. They weren't moving around like they used to.
Now, there are a number of people who are plotting recipes to turn Paul into a delicacy >:D  Fried calamari? haha  Poor Paul. The aquarium people and his keeper will have to watch him EVEN closer now or else he might be kidnapped xD
I guess Paul has became the world's most famous Octopus xD HAHA  wow...

Maybe we should start training our pets to predict the future ;D

I love my doggies

Saturday, I spent my time trimming Lillie's hair and then mom and I bathed the other dogs.
Their all so cute! ^_^  Lillie got her usual lion haircut ;D  , Fiffie was really upset about her bath, Bobbie was strangely reluctant (normally she loves baths), Mickey was very obedient as usual and Woofie was the best. haha. He's the biggest and yet he listens and even lied down for us :D
At the end, since i was soaked ALL OVER. I gave him a massive hug. hehee


Ya know, my doggies are like my family. Their always there to support you. Their always there to listen to you. They won't talk back, but they will answer you. You can see it in their eyes and their face. They smile when you're happy. When you're sad, they come to you and join you and be sad. When you're angry, they become extra obedient. When you do something for them, they know it and become very appreciative.
You don't have to talk to them but they still understand you. SOmetimes, they're even smarter than humans! I have  no worries  with them.
They won't lie. They won't pretend. They won't ignore. They're always smiling at you and trying make your day. Especially after coming home from a day's worth of schoolwork, to see they're smiling faces at the doors smacks a smile on my face too. :)
A friend of mine gave me a DOG LOVER key chain for my birthday last last year. or was it last last last year.... well, one of those birthdays. I keep it on my pencil box now ^_^  and it's my favourite. heehee
I think there will be more to come of my doggies...  and pictures too. but later. Once i get the comp organised and the photoshop working

Colours are very important

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Yes, yes, Why in the world would I start with a HAHAHAHAHA.
Well, it's because I just realised how silly I was  xD
Previously, I was wondering why ALL the COLOURS on the blog was SO boring and then I SUDDENLY somehow pressed some buttons and tweeked it here and there and now I can put colours :D

Weeeeeeee.. Now I can put as many colours as I want!!!  :D HAHAHAHA

LOL

:)

Someone told me that my blog is scary. WOW Wonder if it's a good thing or a bad thing? HAHAHAHA
I know maybe I kinda overkilled it with all the freakishly depressing stuff and may make me look like some kind of loony with a sad depressing life. hehee
but it's like a phase I guess. There will always be a certain time I will start babbling like that or stare at you with an evil stare but it is nonetheless a phase
;]
Annnnnnnyways....... Hols are like so.. hm.... NICE :)
People are busy posting on their facebook and like saying everywhere that it's boring and all but I STILL enjoy my HOls :P
I've got loads I could do actually. Maybe just lepak also can ya know :) Of course, if ya bored or something, feel free to like I donno send me a message or facebook me. haha... makes things more fun ;P
well, so far, my to-do-list for hols includes:
- Give Lillie a haircut
- Bath the dogs
- Finish up maths and science homework =.=
- Do piano work! :O
- Learn how to roller blade? >:] or maybe ice skate. haha
- Bake cookies!! :D
- Clean bedroom

There's PLENTY of room for extra stuff. Wonder what else I could do.....

HOLS babeh!

The hols are finally here!! :D OMG... last day of school actually turned out pretty fun :)We had swimming last which is PE and THAT was definitely tiring but great ;]

Gosh! This hols I will definitely do what i intend to. I always never finish the list of things I wanna do. So, I've decided this time I'm not gonna make a list. I'll just do whatever comes to mind. HAHAHA

I feel so over the moon now :D Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
LOL or maybe KKK. HAHAHAHA

Am I That Happy a Person?

Several times I've been told that I am a happy person. Perky, carefree, happy all the time. But, why DON'T I feel happy all the time? I guess it's a good thing because at least I won't bring the people near me into a bad mood. In fact, I feel guilty if I made someone sad so I might as well keep it to myself.
So, here's the big shocker... I'm actually not happy ALL the time. I mean it's virtually IMPOSSIBLE for someone to be happy all the time. Like Helloo... I AM HUMAN. Sheesh!
I was once told that I was HATED because I liked to perk a lot. Perk a lot?? When i first heard that, I was like, "What in the world does THAT mean?"
I don't always tell the world that I am sad or upset or annoyed because I think of other people's lives which are FAR more suckier than mine and you don't see them make a big deal out of it. I see people go through SO much more which makes whatever I do seem like a stroll in the park. I feel like I don't have the right to be sad. Besides that, my life so far is good. No MAJOR heartbreakers or MAJOR setbacks yet.... (which hopefully when it comes, it doesn't become too much of a blow) Then again, every little happy thing that comes my way, I make a big deal out of it. Just so that I can tell myself that "I am lucky". Something I learned from my mom. There's nothing you can do about it. Ya just gotta make the best out of every situation.
Sometimes, I feel the looks pointed towards me are those with suspicion. Like I am some plague that they should stay away from. This is probably one of my paranoid thoughts but how can I deny it? There are some that I can tell is genuine and some that I THINK is genuine but could just be trying to trick me. Still, you can feel those walls coming up RIGHT in front of you. And then the daggers that rain down from those looks just beat you to the ground.
In fact, this blog provided a very good outage for these paranoid thoughts. Rather than dumping them on someone else and making them sad or annoyed, I throw it out here. So yes, I write A LOT. It's ok if people read it or not. It doesn't really matter I guess. But if they actually do, it's nice to just throw me a truly truly genuine smile or acknowledment to push away my stupid sense of paranoia.
In the end, I've just gotta learn to push away random thoughts from my mind and just focus on the main things

"Don't ever let the world change the way you are"

Depression is over :)

Wow... what in the world was wrong with me? HAHAHA
Check out the first two posts. SO emo. Well, like I said, this blog is a window to my mind. You only get a glimpse in, not a way in.
Today, I'm happy :) I think it's the random emo hormones xD
I realised the internet is actually a very depressing place.
1. Staring at a rectangular thingy
2. Moving fingers without moving mouth
3. Laughing at the rectangular thingy when you see something funny
4. Sitting alone with a rectangular thingy
5. The rectangular thingy spoils eyes

Haha... Well, father's day today =D my dad requested curry laksa yesterday and today claypot chicken rice specially made by my dearest momma :]
Now, my dad's fixing the computer that died. RIP... my old comp
Looks like he's gonna change some parts and it will never be the same again. but then again, that was quite a lousy comp. haha.. it was SO slow. still, GOODBYE..
and HELLO! to new stuff ;)

What Am I To Do?

It feels like there's a void in myself. I know what my goal is but it seems too... far away and if that goal isn't succeeded, what am I to do?
We must live in the moment and just do whatever on the spot. I need something to do. Something to look forward to everyday.
People I can turn to in excitement. Someone I look forward to seeing every day. Something I want to do everyday.
Sinking into this emptyness where my life is. yes yes... there are things in there. fascinating things. But, I', not doing much with them.
So, many secret wishes in my mind will never be fulfilled. So many wishes that in time will disappear. So many things I wish to do but just don't have the guts to initiate them.

What am I to do?

I know I'm not perfect

There will always be people who hate you. It's something we can't avoid. As someone once told me: "If everyone likes you, you would be president already"
It's annoying when you feel like people are conspiring behind your back. I used to think it's just paranoia. But time and time again, these paranoid thoughts become reality. It's like knowing a little bit of something that everyone knows everything about.
I should tell myself that, it doesn't matter. Just ignore it. or maybe, it's over, it's the past. But that's not particularly easy to do. The best way is to NOT think.
Block everything out or make yourself so busy that you don't have time to think.
The inside door should just be closed and exclusive. The outer lawn be easily assessible.
So, AM i paranoid? Either way, it's still a loss. People change ALL the time. Whom I used to think was mean is kind, was nice is evil, was good is bad, was harmless is highly dangerous.

Well, all this crap, came from somewhere in my head. Whether or not this makes sense, it makes sense to me.

Nice place to live in : Berlin

The life of a Berliner looks great to an outside eye
Great public transportation with buses, trains, taxis. ALso bicycles are everywhere.
You get to keep fit and cycle to anywhere with proper bike lanes. No pollution. The air is as fresh as ever.
Tickets for buses and trains are sold but there are no barriers. You are MEANT to buy them. They just conduct regular checks to make sure you buy them. otherwise, people are so honest.
The people are so polite too. They don't exactly smile at you like they've known you for centuries. They acknowledge you without creeping you out.
The roads and buildings are really really clean too. Great place to be
Oh, the weather. Oh.. yesh. great weather.

This is the type of city you'd imagine in your dreams. well, I guess if you wanna live there comfortably, my advice, LEARN GERMAN! :D

Auf Wiederschien :)

New design

My blog needs a new look... HAHAHA anymore ideas? I changed the design
but I'll take my time to improve it ^_^

BLOGGGGGGG

WHOA... Exams really pulled me away from blogging. hehehe... well, all my wonderful fantastic ideas were lost to the notorious tests. hhaiz...

Anyway, this blog needs a MAJOR makeover. HAHAHA... but I'm so lazy xD well, eventually will get it ;)

hehehe... now.... BLOGGGGGGINGGGGG hahaha

Don't you just miss Tim Urban? =D

Unforgettable

A lingering thought in my mind that was to be erased but could never be gone.
I still wonder to myself. How could you be so mean?
I trusted you. I helped you. I let you in. But I guess, I was a fool for believing our friendship was real.

Do you know how deep that "stab" was? Did you know I was ready to forgive and forget? Did you know that despite that betrayal, i was willing to start afresh?

I bet you refused to believe because through your eyes, I am merely a selfish, manipulative, horrible person. My thoughts are a mess. Be nice to people and get treated like this. What in the world is wrong? And so, you went on denying and thrusted that stab wound deeper in and just left it there. That knife was taken out myself but every wound leaves a scar. I begin to doubt everything and paranoia sets in. Was it just you or everyone too?


Now, it's just at a standstill. A stalemate in a chess game you initiated that I never wanted.

I've been told to ignore and forget. However, this must NEVER be forgotten. It is a valuable lesson and reminder to always keep my guard up. It will always linger in a corner of my mind and be there to tell me of just how ruthless people can be.

You seem to be a lost case. You refuse to open your eyes and see. But when I think of everyone else, my heart is put to ease. It was only you. Then I remember my other friends who have been true and honest with me. Who are always there when I need them. Whom I will never hurt and hope in turn won't hurt me. Who I can trust and know that they can trust me.

I hope all of you know that I truly appreciate our friendship and pray it will last :)

Quote-ish

"Mercy Ain't Shown Where Mercy Ain't Wanted"

~Ann KH

This popped into my head. and then it was typed on facebook against someone. haaha.. that someone, you know who you are and i don't wish to further "hurt" your konnonya "wounds" so your name is unmentioned XD

After typing it, I realised, wow... that sounded SO quote-ish. hahah! So, this is my first OFFICIAL quote that seems "pro". hehehe.... my previous ones are different and may appear on this blog someday in the future ;)

This guy is AWESOME!!!! :D

Why blog?

hm.. there's no significant reason. Just another random act of randomness :)

This is not a Diary

This blog will not be filled with things that i do everyday. It would be boring to write. "today, I studied maths and nearly killed the book" or "today, I saw a bird drop dead out of the sky" or "today was boring" haha. nope.

THis is a portal to my mind..... *spooky music* well, one part of my mind that needs emptying XD though you won't see into it. haha. no no. you'll have to know me to see what's really in there. ;)

like i said, it's NOT a diary. my diary is kept in *** at *** guarded by *** near the *** which is *** coloured. haha :D

Compelled to write a blog

Ah... I finally decided to write a blog. I know I have lots of homework, but my brain is like "NO! or else I'll shut down and nothing can be done" so I have to spend some time away from homework. haha...

This blog thing is kinda confusing me =.= I have to find my way around...